Jab we met

Love is a beautiful feeling, even when it involves the fear of losing the person you love. As Tennyson wrote in In Memorium: “It is better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.”

Ever since I can remember I had wanted to fall in love. And, not only fall in love, but fall in love with the right person. I wanted someone who would accept my faults and love me for who I am, I decided that the elusive emotion of love wasn’t meant for me and I reconciled myself to the fact that I might never find my Mr Right. I should have known that God’s sense of humor is wicked, at the very least!

My first interaction with the person I fell in love with was explosive.
VINOD - who’s incessantly HOT and naive at heart. He is cool, confident, smart, clever, humble, kind and social. He has touched my life in all possible ways, his genuineness, charm, intelligence, wit, honesty, compassion, modesty have wooed me.

I talk to him for hours every day.
As time passed, we realized that we were on the same wavelength. Slowly mutual liking emerged into a bond of empathy, which led to a lot of advice giving and taking and we started spending a lot of time taking to each other. I still don’t know when this strong friendship blossomed into love – was it when I heard him talking about his female friends and felt the first arrow of jealousy prick me, or was it when I found myself waiting for his calls and visits?

I don’t know. And after months of knowing him, it is still a mystery to me. When I look back now I wonder, was there actually a time when we didn’t know each other? I’m sure God must be having a good laugh for He brought me to the edge of despair before filling my life with sunshine.
HE IS A BLESSING ON ME!!!

His biggest strength is his ability to accept, learn and move on. His biggest weakness is tears in my eyes. And before I forget he doesn’t have a bone of romance in him (I hope he doesn’t get to read this) wink! wink!

This person is the joy of my life – he makes me laugh, he reduces me to tears, he still advises me and there are times when he even irritates me. He brings a smile on my face and a twinkle in my eye, he makes my heart thump faster.
when I close my eyes at night, the one emotion that stays with me is the feeling of security that he gives me. We are not officially committed to each other, but some bonds don’t require a piece of paper. The union is already there, between our hearts and souls. And that I feel is above all rituals.

WILL THIS LAST FOREVER?????????? This is a question I couldn’t answer and didn’t even try to. And, neither did he. If I get him then life can never get any better.

I don’t know what our future holds. Each day I wake up wondering whether this will be the day when I will lose him and each night I thank God for letting me share another day with him.

I got a very nice forward the other day. It said – when we were kids, we were eager to grow up and fall in love. Now that we are grown up we have realized that wounded knees were much better than broken hearts. But I would say, give me a broken heart any day, for even if I have to go through the agony of losing him, it will be worth it. For at least I had a chance to love him and be loved unconditionally by him. It’s not important to know if I will be with him 30 years from now, what’s important is that he makes me feel alive even for the 30 minutes that I spend with him. That is the biggest blessing I could ask for. The rest, as they say, is a bonus.

Veena - An Inspiration

Veena finally convinced me that I simply HAD to blog and how I couldn’t NOT blog and how it would help me in so many ways, I was far from consenting. In fact, my constant retort was, ‘What on earth am I going to write about??’ However, succumb to the pressure I did. And I love her for it. I still don’t know what I’m going to write about. Or how I’m going make it interesting or fun or enjoyable…but I do know that my head is always swimming with thoughts and perhaps some of them merit a second take. I don’t look at the world through rose colored glasses. Trust me there’s plenty going on that annoys me no end – almost to the point of joining the ever popular shoe fingers. I don’t mix with the crème de la crème of society. I don’t have these fascinating hobbies which might leave me with insightful stories; like para-gliding and horse riding and wine tasting and what have you. But I do know some amazing people. They walk amongst you, they sit in the street cafés sipping their teas, they eat at the local Chili’s outlet, they play ball at the basketball courts near by, they groove to their i-pods, blissfully ignorant of passers-by. Just your normal, everyday people, who make me smile, comfort me, encourage me, scold me, laugh with me and support me. My very own shiny, happy people; whom I have the honor of calling friends. I’ve learnt a lot of stuff. In all my years, I don’t think any of life's real lessons have been conscious ones. But learn them, I did. In fact, if you think about it – we all have. People call me a dreamer, I’ve been called naive, even lost in the clouds sometimes. But if you really get to know me, I’m right here and I’m happy. I love life, I love my family, I love my friends. I love my world. It’s the same for us all I guess…but I prefer the view from my corner. I’m not too possessive of it though, so feel free to grab a chair and sit with me for a while. Perhaps we’ll find we have something in common.

Thank you Veena for inspiring me.